In November of 1990 in preparation for the Gulf War I got the Anthrax Vaccine under treat of court martial: while on Active Duty in the Military at Mountain Home Idaho, were I was an F/E-111 Computer Test Station technician, I had a reaction to the Vaccine, as others did, after hearing that over 1,500 where killed by the Vaccine, and over 275,000 who got this shot, some also got Gulf War Syndrome, but everyone got Vaccinated and they started to committed suicide at an alarming rate that continues to this date, so I wondered if the Court Martial would not have been a better route to take, because the next day I woke up with Flu like symptoms and a very loud ringing in my head called Tinnitus, and recently I got a newer type of hearing aid, since my hearing lost is Severe, ¾ of my hearing range is gone, and without the hearing aids I can not hear anything above 6,666 kHz, the ringing sound is normally above 70 db and as loud as 100 db, and as a result the way I thought changed again, this time I lost my ability to turn that little voice off, whereas before that I could meditate and quiet it, after that date, life got very difficult, I knew I was not thinking the same way I did the day before I got the shot, but could not figure out what that was, so I started to study every book I could find on the subject, and noticed that I did not think like anyone that these books described, so it puzzled me how this could be. Nowadays I have a hard time creating these Images in my mind, because I can only do so at the speed I can talk, and one picture really is worth a 1,000 words, so my thinking is so slow that it actually hurts to think, and its why most people do not like talking to me, and why I do not like talking to people.
I was medically retired from the United States Air Force for symptoms of Gulf War Syndrome, even though they wanted you to sign a paper saying you did not have it, I have been diagnosed by the Air Force and VA as having a rare sleeping disorder called Sleep misperception with No REM state sleep, this may have been caused by the Vaccine is what some doctors tell me, but there is no cure, on a normal day I lay in bed and dream that I am awake, I might be staring at the ceiling, or even get up and go about my day, only to wake up in bed and try to sort things out, when I finally realized I was asleep and just dreaming, but this lead to Chronic Fatigue Syndrome (CFS), and I stared to tense all my muscles which lead to Temporomandibular Joint Disease (TMJ, TMJD or TMD), and then I was diagnosed with Skin Cancer and Fibromyalgia Syndrome (FMS), and then from tensing my hands so hard everyday I ended up with Advanced Deteriorating Joint Disease (ADJD) or severe arthritis, and arthritis in my toes, and my life up to this point was one drama after the next, so they diagnosed me as having Chronic Pain Disorder, all the while telling me that No REM sleep is not good, some Dreams I was having where very terrifying but not as much as real life working in Air Rescue for: the 66th RQS Squadron and Special Ops in the 31st Black Knights Squadron as a Helicopter Crew Chief, so it was no wonder I ended up being diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and During my tour in Kuwait I was exposed to Depleted Uranium, Lead and Mercury in the water supply, Oil fires and many other chemicals, which caused toxic build up in my body, then I was exposed to Sarin gas from Chemical warfare, so it was no wonder I was diagnosed with a rare form of Lymphoma, by the time I turned 32 I was diagnosed with Anxiety and Major Depression, and oh and by the way you have OCD, in 1996 I broke my back at the 5th Lumbar while in Korea, but the x-ray set in my file undiagnosed until I broke it again around July of 1997, leaving me with Neuropathy in both feet, so in short, I was medically retired and can not move around much because I have Vertigo and often get dizzy and fall down, I have Meltdowns, where my vision just seems to be like glass that is literally melting, my vision becomes distorted, and the only sign I have that this is about to happen is a sharp pain above my right eye, and a Lightning strike that I can see in both eyes as if it was inside my head, and it feels like a needle being stuck through my right eye into my left eye, and they can last for seconds to hours, cluster headaches from hell. I still have recurring Dreams and Nightmares, in my Dreams I do not hear the Tinnitus, but questions I need answer to - will sometimes come to me, sometimes I can pull up those old documents and read them again, so nothing is truly lost, it is just buried deep inside, so when I was Medically retired I started a website called The Vets Help Center, where I found that there are many people who were effected by the Gulf War Syndrome, so many of us got together and decided to put the story right, because it was not right that they deny Gulf War Syndrome exist, so they changed the name to Gulf War illness, as if that would make us feel better, because nothing else changed, one diagnoses after the next with no relief in sight.
The Gulf War itself, was about Slavery, in 1960 Third Country Nationalist or TCN's, since a Contract to work for Kuwait for 3 Generations, so do the Math, in 1990 they would become Citizens, and would share in the Wealth of Common Wealth, so much for that Dream, Iraq was paid Money to Kill them all, it was just another 30 year War, and I was not to happy about it, what else can I say about the Gulf War.
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